MY DAIRY PART-------'''I THINK ENGLISH IS PIVOT IS OUR LIFE.'''' ......I felt so embarrassed when i was talking in Hindi with her and she told me' I don't know how to speak Hindi...that time, her behavior amazed me and i replied,' it is very ridiculous statement .it is malevolence, you don't know Hindi. one more thing i am also well in English, but i never talk to English with Indian. She smiled n told me,' I sure u don't know how to speak English and i think English is underbelly of yours. Again she whispered me,' you have done MBA. so ask own heart???..sorry!!!! you are egoist person n u r real Indian.so let us talk in Hindi............ kya kabhi tumne apne dil se puchha hai ki tumne kya paaya hai apne life se. sayad kabhi nahi puche,is life me sirf jeene ke liye aaye ho to hindi theek hai, magar zindagi me kuch karna hai to sayad iss language ki knowledge rakhna bahut jaruri hai...we know also we never can forget Hindi till we alive bcoz it is heart for us n we know also heart is very soft thing. so don't think about heart, think about own mind( English)....or haan abhi tumhe mein hi galat nazar aa rahi hogi, lekin kabhi dil se puchna jawab tumhe mil jayega ki koun galat hai.......ok i need to go n sorry again if i hurt you and don't take to my word in own heart. .........................I wanted screamed out her, but i was speechless. i wanted to explain her but it was difficult to persuade her to change her mind. i couldn't say her yes!!!! i have taken your word in own heart.i was silent as if i were i am dumb. i was only feeling about myself,' is it true? is she right? ...i think she is right. it was only my disbelief,' i am omniscient person. Now day she is not part of my life but her words hunt in my heart again n again. i think about her words a lot. I feel she really flourished me. I have made an obsessive and adorn fan of her. .....NOW i think obsession about my career. i can do anything to jeopardize myself career..if i got my path then i would really grateful of her............

Kitabo k panno ko palat k sochta hu,
yu palat jaye meri zindagi to kya baat ho,
khwabo mein roz milti hai jo,
haqiqat mein mil jaye to kya baat ho,
kuch matlab k liye dhundhte hain mujhko,
bin matlab jo aaye to kya baat ho,
Qatl kar k to sab le jayenge dil mera,
koi aankho se chura le jaye to kya baat ho

ab achha lagta hai

Us ke bina ab chup chup rehna acha lagta hai;

Khamoshi se dard ko sehna acha lagta hai;

Jis hasti ki yad mein Aanso barastey hain;

Samne us ke kuch na kehna acha lagta hai;

Mil ker us se Bichar na jaon darta rehta hon;

Is liye bas door hi rehna acha lagta hai;

Janta hon k chahat main bas anso milte hain;

Kuch bhi ho ab is zehar ko pena acha lagta hai;

Ji chahey sb khushiyan lai kar us ko de don;

us ke pyar main sb kuch khona acha lagta hai..

aisa nahi hai............

......Aisa nahi Ki sirf usi ki chahat hai Humain,
par kya karu koi chahta bhi to Nahi hai Humain.
unki yaado me bhi rahne ki adat nahi hai humain,
lekin kya karu kisi or ki yaad aati bhi to Nahi hai humain.
janta hu iss tarah tanha raahege na kabhi,
par wo din kab aayega yahi to pata nahi hai humain.

kya likhu!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

ab me kya likhu, likhne ka kuchh bacha nahi.
jab wo the to sab tha,
jab wo hi nahi ab kuch bhi bacha nahi.
chahte the jab hum use,
to wo bhi chahti thi mujhe.
ab sab chahte hai use,
to uske liye kuchh bacha nahi.
log haste hai meri prem kahani sunkar,
or kahte hai ab tumhari jindagi me kuchh bacha nahi.
bacha hai kewal sahyari,
so bhi tum romantic shayri likhte nahi.
ab me unhe kaise batau ki meri jindagi bhi ek sad hai,
or sad ke alawe meri jindagi me kuchh bacha nahi.
isliye likhu to kya likhu, likhne ka kuch bacha nahi.

kaise kahu ki tum meri koun ho,

jab se tumhe dekha hai tab se ye dil diwana hai

pagal hai dil ter pyaar me

par tum kaise samjhogi,

tumhe to sirf tarpana achha lagta hai

kaise batau tumhe ki jab

tumhe nahi dekhta hu to

kya gujarta hai mere dil ko

or jab tumhe dekhta hu,

to kitna achha lagta hai mere dil ko

par tum nahi janti.

lekin tum janogi kaise

tum, to ek nayi sapno me khoyi ho.

ek esa sapna jiska raaj kumar koi or hai,

khusanasib hoga wah raajkumar

jiske liye tere dil darkata hai.

badnasib to me hu,

jiske liye tera dil pathar ho jata hai.

me ye bhi janta hu ki

tum mujhse nafarat karti ho,

par kya karuyeye dil baar baar yahi kahta hai

sirf tummmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm

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gussa kyu aata hai

akhir hume gussa kyu aata hai....
papa ke ek chhoti si daat par,
mummmy ke dular par.
akhir hume gussa kyu aata hai.

yaaro ke majak par,
teacher ke maar par,
akhir hume gussa kyu aata hai.

jhuthi baat par,
kabhi kabhi sachchi baat par,
akhir hume gussa kyu aata hai.

unke prem par,
unke chritra par,
unke didar par,
akir hume gussa kyu aata hai.